i dont know why she insist, i mean in the past things never worked out. everytime we were together it was just to fool around. which was fun by the way, but it jusst doesnt seem right... sometimes i do feel atracted to her. and we start foolin aaround. and theres this girl alma i barley met her and i ffound out that shes bi, and i dont know if shes trying to make a move on me, or jst being very friendly...

sex... everyone is so preoccupied with it... whats so great abouti it anyways?!

B O R E D



one time at church the priest told us that when we have faith in god that he would give us the impossible................................. well HA HA.. and then one time he sang this song of this mountain thats in front of us and that we could move it if we have faith on god............ by the mountain he ment problems, that by believing in god our problems would seem small, you know, move the mountain..... and it reminds me of how once i tripped on a little rock inthe ground..... so much for a mountain, becuase little things can turn big if they already arent....

yeah im just very bored.......... HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...... im starting to not have faithin god..... i think that godd is just an EXCUSE..... a worthless excuse.

i feel like i could die, emotionally and physically....

we should live life doing what we want to do.... but that just seems imposible...

i hate the government so badly.....................i cant say this online but ..... okay, never mind.... bye

ive found confort in music....

i miss my friends. i miss my sister, my mom, my dad, and school....

sad... why. prozac my hero why have you failed me???

sad

doesnt anyone agree???

im invisible here as i am in the real world....

sad but true like that song from metallica... lol

so do any of us have anything in common? because im starting to think that im the only one. what do you guys like? for example what kind of music and hobbies. if im getting nosy please do tell, but really what are blogs for asnyways, we all have them in view for everyone to see...
my easter will be boring i can smell it already(smells like feet).

my sister left to germany already so that sucks, i dont ever get to see her...
shes only my half sister by the way; i barley met her 2 weeks ago. You see, we have the same father only. i also met my dad at the ceasar chavez march on saturday. It was akward...

i found out i have a lot of sisters and brothers taht i didnt know about. my dad had 7 wifes....

Good- bye.

i just love to protest! i finnaly got into it and i love it! its like people are always trying to control us, and we learn to keep quiet, but thats when protesting comes in.

you see stars that clear have been dead for years, but the idea just lives on....


welll the futures got me worried such awful thoughts
my heads a carasoul of pictures the spinning never stops

my mom would always say:" friends wont always be their for you. you have no one in this world." i would denty this truth. but you mature, you start to realize a lot of things. ithink for the life i have lived, i know about this. and well, always listen to your mom.

how is everybody doing? hmmm.... bored but not really here with my cusin... shes really weird...i dunno what to write really, but spring break has been a real drag, not much going on. we were going to south padre island but then we decided that it wouldnt be apropriate for our church group, you know what i mean?

i think that wrtiting to someone would be cool, you know like a pen-pal?

long story short...

first my mother tells every one that im mad i wasnt but then i actually did get angry, but acted like i wasnt, i walked out, then this kid peed on my shoe... then this guy wanted to beat up the priest... then a hyper active kid hit himself on a chair on his head, but it didnt look like it bothetrd him. then he himself for the second time, and this tim ehe cut the top of his eyelid and forehead, started to yell frantictley,his da came and gave me the evilist stare ever, like if it was my fault... like if i told the kid to go inside the room where my sister was studying... after that, a man came out with a girl who is like 3 years old, and threw her up from h er arm and hit her really hard like two times that i heard it; the poor little girl staterd to cry... that really got me angry since the dad saw that we were looking, my sister and i, he said" she bit me really hard" but i dont care it couldve been a spanking, but no, that was worse, and i dont believe that was a reason to hit a child... i cna name so many things that are wrong with the church but if i did i wouldnt be able to finish...

i think so... i mean maybe they are not real but still you can inhabit their customs... i dunno im being dumb...

my nose is all stuffy oh what a drag... i just ate lunch, we were hanging out during lunch today, lilly and i hearing less than jake, eating subway, then she says that shes leaving to mexico leaving me all loner how sad i cant believet that shes leaving me